[ Robby's listening for his omni this time. He doesn't rush for it when he hears it go off, but he's quicker to get to it before; re-reading the message a few times, trying to gather his thoughts together in the mess. ]
i don't know. okay? i can't think about me right now.
peter's a good guy. even if you don't like him, he didn't say shit about you to me. luna's the one who murdered you and wouldn't stop shittalking you after i told her to fuck off with it. after i've been helping peter deal with paimon. she knew you were my dad and she just doubled down
[ She said one thing and then doubled down, but resent and remember. ]
i dont know how you can put what maul did to you in the past. are you really training with that guy? tory said you were, but tory didn't even know why he killed you in the first place. she just decided to give secondhand therapy to a mass murderer
all those people were there, but did you have anyone to actually talk about this to? i don't know. it feels like someone like maul got all these chances but everyone just treats you like a joke who can't change. and i know i've been there too but that's what makes me angry
I have less of a problem with Peter now that I know more about his whole deal. I still don't understand it really but I know it's a weird mess. I thought he was unstable or some shit at first. I didn't find out there were two guys in there until a couple months ago. When there was the scare the wimpy kid part of him might be gone.
Yeah. She's kind of a bitch. There's some other shit that happened between us but we both have our reasons to be pissy with one another. I thought I was getting back at them for attacking me. Turns out I had the wrong guy.
[He didn't normally talk about the whole attacking Peter thing. But this was as much as he really wanted to.]
A little bit here and there. I don't exactly like the guy but... Look. I guess I spen a lot of time thinking I wasn't much better than him. People back at home had a tendancy to look at me like I'm some kind of psycho who doesn't deserve a second chance.
I guess I just related to him a little.
I don't exactly talk a lot about all this stuff exactly. I've talked to Paul, Sharon, Tory and couple other people. I've had other things I've been working on more than this. I've been trying to get my life together.
Look. I don't know exactly why they do that. It's not like he even has a dick to suck. But if I had to guess they're more afraid of what happens if he blows up than if I do. More eggshells are going to break if he fucks up than if I do.
But I've met some good people around here that don't think I'm joke. Those are the ones that I care about. The assholes who think I'm joke. Well they're the ones who don't really know me.
...And if you don't want them thinking that. Maybe I have to give them more reason not to.
[ ... ] i knew about maul's deal before i started training with him. if i'm fair, he was there for me sometimes. he said he's trying to change. but i never took him for a guy to kill someone over something so stupid these days. i would've been pissed if he did that to anyone else
maybe he is the kind of guy everyone needs to walk on eggshells for.
[ It's not the point he wants to make, ending on that like an agreement. I wish you got the same effort, repeating himself, when his dad's saying people have been there. And what does Robby know about Maul's support system, really?
He knows the shit people say and ask about his dad. He's had people say to his face they find his dad fun to watch.
Truthfully, he's just bitter. ]
my mind just keeps going around in circles. i know you're trying to do better now. we talked about some of this before. people aren't worth caring about if they're going to judge you but [ ... ] i want you to prove them wrong
From what I gather he had just managed to slip out of a very tight leash on the whole killing thing. I think I was more his shot to prove he could over what actually happened.
Which makes it even more bullshit. But I'm not exactly giving this guy points for brains here.
There could be something more to it. The whole pet project thing trying to make him better for their own benefit sounds more like it.
[There is a bit of the old Cobra Kai in Johnny that focuses on the prove them wrong. It was same urge that got him to go out and reopen the dojo in the first place. He knows a little better now. Knows to do it for the right reasons, to do it the right way instead of how Kreese had originally taught him. He pauses on that briefly before he types.]
Then let's prove them wrong. I'm game.
Not in depth or anything. Just that it happened. I don't know. I didn't get as much one on one time with her training back in our own world. And I was kind of freaked out to learn more about who I was going to be and how that me fucked up or did things better. I kind of kept Tory at arms length because of that.
I'm less freaked out about that now. And- I want to try and be there more for all of you. ...And yeah you can throw LaRusso into that bucket too.
[ He was hoping on some answer to him and Tory in asking about her, but Robby reads it over and finds himself as lost as he already was.
He just feels so exhausted. ]
even if you don't like him much to hang out with him often, it's good if you can have each other's backs. mr larusso i mean. i don't want you two to have a relationship just because of me. that's up to you two
i have these bracelets that come over the knuckles when you use them. they hit hard and mr viktor fitted some tech on them so they make a barrier around you
will you take them until you find something better you like. if they fit you
you can have both you know theyre still metal. you still hit with them. theyre not less offensive because they can protect you too stop sounding allergic to some fucking defense after everything we just talked about
[ Is he being overly sensitive? Maybe even misreading his dad? Sure is!! ]
[There's pause before Johnny responds to that. A slight recoil from the sudden tone Robby takes on. But... He gets it. And he knows he can't just back down here either.]
I didn't mean it like that. I'll use 'em and I'm sure I can use them offensively too. And I want to protect myself. I'm just saying I might swap them out for something that's more me when I do.
[ It takes Robby a moment to reply. It did get him worked up, the thought of his dad's stubbornness rearing its head. He doesn't even want to acknowledge he jumped to conclusions, but: ]
[ He doesn't know if he should be thanked for that last part, when he isn't sure how capable of not giving up he is. This is scary, as humiliating of a reaction that is: because the unknown regarding his dad's life scares him. It scares him to think about him dying again, whatever the reason. Their relationship was delicate before this aspect was thrown into it.
(Tory told him once about telling his dad he loved him, and he remembers it now, staring at the omni. But he can't. Is this love? It just feels like fear.)
Robby doesn't give any following text immediately, but give him about four or five minutes. ]
its ok uh before i found out everything i offered to help peter deal with paimon. i chatted with paimon before peter told me about it and he liked me. and peter has trouble feeling connected. like a person? because of the demon. but hes been trying to learn how to live with it more and i said i would help to make it calm down if it ever acts up i havent seen it since i found out about what happened. but i spoke with peter and i want to keep helping him
[ It's a block of text, maybe, but it's the only way he can get it out, slowly as he does. There's a lot there he's scared about too, but bottles aren't made to be empty. ]
Yeah. It took me awhile to kind of figure that out. I just saw the kid freakin' out and being a mess. Then I saw the times when the king- or Paimon showed up. Just thought it was corruption or weird shit going on with him. Either way I tried to get back at him for the whole death thing awhile back and got talked out of it.
Found out later on that things were more complicated. I've kind of had a few little talks with the both of them. But not really about all that.
Watch yourself around the whole demon guy. He seems like the more unstable of the two. But I think trying to help the guy isn't bad idea either.
Look. I'm glad you came to talk to me about this. I didn't mean to keep it a secret from you. Or to make you worry more or have it mess up things with people you liked here.
It doesn't change how long it took, or that I wasn't trying to hide it from you. But I'm sorry I didn't tell you sooner and that you found out the way you did.
Her name's Willow. She's magic or some shit like Luna. A bit easier to deal with too.
Those are the biggest things. Some people get all pissy that I threw a bunch of bears at my students back when I was holding my tournament. But some bitch said the other teacher could fight a bear. So I was trying to prepare them what ever could get thrown at them.
...And I shit in a dude's clock once because he was an asshole.
But those are smaller than just about everything else.
So all these portals showed up that spit out things from different worlds. I found one that had a bunch of bears. So I brought my students. It wasn't about what we were fighting. They were going to be fighting each other in the tournament. Look- You don't train people to fight someone who can take on a bear by having them fight things that aren't bears. It was authentic.
Look- I met a girl who was going through some shit. I thought the dude was being like weird and awful to her. He was offering free fighting lessons and shit- so I showed up for it. Went through the training thing and there was a little reception at the end in his weird mansion. I decided to stick it to him by doing that. He has a weird obsession with clocks so it made sense at the time.
Pretty sure he wasn't all that bad of a dude in the long run. The chick kind of had a weird victim complex and started making the same cries about me not long after.
[ Robby doesn't really want to be thinking about how his dad's mind works right now (if he did, he'd think he just doesn't know how bad the stink bombs can be here). He's not in the mood for shitting contests, here. ]
[ He could just text 'okay' for the fiftieth time, but Robby stops for a moment. It feels weird--how does one close off from a conversation like this? He's really been avoiding having to do so (or just let it die off in this weird world about shitting in clocks).
But: ]
ill tell you if anything happens to me if you do the same but if thats it for now then fine thanks for telling me
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Date: 2023-03-14 03:56 pm (UTC)i don't know. okay? i can't think about me right now.
peter's a good guy. even if you don't like him, he didn't say shit about you to me. luna's the one who murdered you and wouldn't stop shittalking you after i told her to fuck off with it. after i've been helping peter deal with paimon. she knew you were my dad and she just doubled down
[ She said one thing and then doubled down, but resent and remember. ]
i dont know how you can put what maul did to you in the past. are you really training with that guy? tory said you were, but tory didn't even know why he killed you in the first place. she just decided to give secondhand therapy to a mass murderer
all those people were there, but did you have anyone to actually talk about this to? i don't know. it feels like someone like maul got all these chances but everyone just treats you like a joke who can't change. and i know i've been there too but that's what makes me angry
i dont want people talking about you like a joke
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Date: 2023-03-14 04:55 pm (UTC)I have less of a problem with Peter now that I know more about his whole deal. I still don't understand it really but I know it's a weird mess. I thought he was unstable or some shit at first. I didn't find out there were two guys in there until a couple months ago. When there was the scare the wimpy kid part of him might be gone.
Yeah. She's kind of a bitch. There's some other shit that happened between us but we both have our reasons to be pissy with one another. I thought I was getting back at them for attacking me. Turns out I had the wrong guy.
[He didn't normally talk about the whole attacking Peter thing. But this was as much as he really wanted to.]
A little bit here and there. I don't exactly like the guy but... Look. I guess I spen a lot of time thinking I wasn't much better than him. People back at home had a tendancy to look at me like I'm some kind of psycho who doesn't deserve a second chance.
I guess I just related to him a little.
I don't exactly talk a lot about all this stuff exactly. I've talked to Paul, Sharon, Tory and couple other people. I've had other things I've been working on more than this. I've been trying to get my life together.
Look. I don't know exactly why they do that. It's not like he even has a dick to suck. But if I had to guess they're more afraid of what happens if he blows up than if I do. More eggshells are going to break if he fucks up than if I do.
But I've met some good people around here that don't think I'm joke. Those are the ones that I care about. The assholes who think I'm joke. Well they're the ones who don't really know me.
...And if you don't want them thinking that. Maybe I have to give them more reason not to.
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Date: 2023-03-14 05:47 pm (UTC)maybe he is the kind of guy everyone needs to walk on eggshells for.
[ It's not the point he wants to make, ending on that like an agreement. I wish you got the same effort, repeating himself, when his dad's saying people have been there. And what does Robby know about Maul's support system, really?
He knows the shit people say and ask about his dad. He's had people say to his face they find his dad fun to watch.
Truthfully, he's just bitter. ]
my mind just keeps going around in circles. i know you're trying to do better now. we talked about some of this before. people aren't worth caring about if they're going to judge you but [ ... ] i want you to prove them wrong
did tory ever talk to you about maul?
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Date: 2023-03-15 02:44 am (UTC)Which makes it even more bullshit. But I'm not exactly giving this guy points for brains here.
There could be something more to it. The whole pet project thing trying to make him better for their own benefit sounds more like it.
[There is a bit of the old Cobra Kai in Johnny that focuses on the prove them wrong. It was same urge that got him to go out and reopen the dojo in the first place. He knows a little better now. Knows to do it for the right reasons, to do it the right way instead of how Kreese had originally taught him. He pauses on that briefly before he types.]
Then let's prove them wrong. I'm game.
Not in depth or anything. Just that it happened. I don't know. I didn't get as much one on one time with her training back in our own world. And I was kind of freaked out to learn more about who I was going to be and how that me fucked up or did things better. I kind of kept Tory at arms length because of that.
I'm less freaked out about that now. And- I want to try and be there more for all of you. ...And yeah you can throw LaRusso into that bucket too.
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Date: 2023-03-15 02:41 pm (UTC)He just feels so exhausted. ]
even if you don't like him much to hang out with him often, it's good if you can have each other's backs. mr larusso i mean. i don't want you two to have a relationship just because of me. that's up to you two
i have these bracelets that come over the knuckles when you use them. they hit hard and mr viktor fitted some tech on them so they make a barrier around you
will you take them until you find something better you like. if they fit you
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Date: 2023-03-16 02:21 am (UTC)I don't know exactly how it'll work out. But we have been talking a bit more and it hasn't gone catastrophic . Who knows?
I'll give 'em a shot. I might look for something more to go on the offense than defense. But I'll use those until we figure something out.
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Date: 2023-03-16 02:55 am (UTC)theyre still metal. you still hit with them. theyre not less offensive because they can protect you too
stop sounding allergic to some fucking defense after everything we just talked about
[ Is he being overly sensitive? Maybe even misreading his dad? Sure is!! ]
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Date: 2023-03-19 02:06 am (UTC)I didn't mean it like that.
I'll use 'em and I'm sure I can use them offensively too. And I want to protect myself.
I'm just saying I might swap them out for something that's more me when I do.
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Date: 2023-03-19 04:23 pm (UTC)okay
[ Another pause. ]
sorry
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Date: 2023-03-21 03:10 am (UTC)Don't mention it.
[There's a pause before he adds in.]
Thanks.
For giving a shit.
And not giving up on me.
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Date: 2023-03-21 09:15 am (UTC)(Tory told him once about telling his dad he loved him, and he remembers it now, staring at the omni. But he can't. Is this love? It just feels like fear.)
Robby doesn't give any following text immediately, but give him about four or five minutes. ]
its ok
uh
before i found out everything i offered to help peter deal with paimon. i chatted with paimon before peter told me about it and he liked me. and peter has trouble feeling connected. like a person? because of the demon. but hes been trying to learn how to live with it more and i said i would help to make it calm down if it ever acts up
i havent seen it since i found out about what happened. but i spoke with peter and i want to keep helping him
[ It's a block of text, maybe, but it's the only way he can get it out, slowly as he does. There's a lot there he's scared about too, but bottles aren't made to be empty. ]
i just wanted you to know
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Date: 2023-03-28 03:16 am (UTC)It took me awhile to kind of figure that out.
I just saw the kid freakin' out and being a mess. Then I saw the times when the king- or Paimon showed up. Just thought it was corruption or weird shit going on with him. Either way I tried to get back at him for the whole death thing awhile back and got talked out of it.
Found out later on that things were more complicated. I've kind of had a few little talks with the both of them. But not really about all that.
Watch yourself around the whole demon guy. He seems like the more unstable of the two.
But I think trying to help the guy isn't bad idea either.
Look.
I'm glad you came to talk to me about this.
I didn't mean to keep it a secret from you.
Or to make you worry more or have it mess up things with people you liked here.
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Date: 2023-03-28 06:56 am (UTC)you dying didnt screw up my relationships with people
you should have told me. but im pissed off at other people for what they did
so whatever
do you know who the friend is that your student tried to stop?
your last one
i dont want to get to know another person and it turns out they got you
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Date: 2023-03-29 12:20 am (UTC)But I'm sorry I didn't tell you sooner and that you found out the way you did.
Her name's Willow. She's magic or some shit like Luna. A bit easier to deal with too.
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Date: 2023-03-29 08:34 am (UTC)i dont know any willows so. guess thats good
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Date: 2023-03-30 03:28 am (UTC)She's a total nerd and kind of a buzz kill.
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Date: 2023-03-30 10:09 am (UTC)well
shitty convo but
nothing else i need to know?
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Date: 2023-04-01 01:35 am (UTC)Some people get all pissy that I threw a bunch of bears at my students back when I was holding my tournament. But some bitch said the other teacher could fight a bear. So I was trying to prepare them what ever could get thrown at them.
...And I shit in a dude's clock once because he was an asshole.
But those are smaller than just about everything else.
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Date: 2023-04-01 08:24 am (UTC)ugh. give him a second.
okay. ]
where did you even get the bears
arent you meant to be training them against the, you know, beasts?
why do you need bears
also wtf his clock
why
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Date: 2023-04-02 04:46 pm (UTC)I found one that had a bunch of bears. So I brought my students.
It wasn't about what we were fighting.
They were going to be fighting each other in the tournament.
Look- You don't train people to fight someone who can take on a bear by having them fight things that aren't bears. It was authentic.
Look- I met a girl who was going through some shit.
I thought the dude was being like weird and awful to her.
He was offering free fighting lessons and shit- so I showed up for it.
Went through the training thing and there was a little reception at the end in his weird mansion.
I decided to stick it to him by doing that.
He has a weird obsession with clocks so it made sense at the time.
Pretty sure he wasn't all that bad of a dude in the long run.
The chick kind of had a weird victim complex and started making the same cries about me not long after.
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Date: 2023-04-02 05:00 pm (UTC)[ He's not giving that bear explanation anything else. ...pretty much his feelings on the shit clock, too. ]
got it
let me know if you want other ideas for sticking it to people
stink bombs would have lasted longer
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Date: 2023-04-04 02:58 am (UTC)But I'm trying to cut down on just how often I stick it to people.
It's been working out okay so far.
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Date: 2023-04-04 06:14 am (UTC)okay
thats good
[ Probably. ]
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Date: 2023-04-06 01:07 am (UTC)Yeah.
Anyways.
That's about the most of it.
There might be some other things but that's about the worst of it.
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Date: 2023-04-06 02:52 pm (UTC)But: ]
ill tell you if anything happens to me if you do the same
but if thats it for now then fine
thanks for telling me