I don't know if it makes you feel any better. But my dad did the same thing. So I get it.
And... I don't want to do it to Robby. I just. I already have done it to him before. I don't want want to keep doing it to him. But I'm having trouble finding a way to let him know I want to be there. That I want in his life. Even if I don't deserve it.
[ She's almost tempted to ask how he could do that to Robby if he knows what it's like. But.. that question feels a little bit too rude, and Chizuru does feel like there might be something here she doesn't understand. Maybe it's since her father has only been gone for about five years now, rather than her entire life. Or maybe it's something she'll understand when she's older.
..
She tries to push aside the thought for now, even though it's hard. ]
if it is alright for me to ask what did you do so far to let him know you want to be there
Before I got here. The last day I remember from back home. He came to my house. He got into some trouble and I took him in and tried to help. There were some problems- Yeah. But we were going to figure it out. I didn't really know what he needed but I was trying.
I hear things go to shit back home after that. And I can't help that. I know what I was trying to do.
When he got here- I've offered to let him stay with me. I've tried to reach out a couple times. Just- Show him that I'm around and want to talk. Or tell him he's doing good. I never got that as a kid. I've... Well I guess we're pretty different. Each time I've got told to go away or that he needs space. And I've tried to respect that.
Mostly because Chizuru is so worried about what to do here. It feels right to communicate what Robby told her to Johnny here, because it might be the only way to give the man an idea of what Robby told her, of what he might want.
On the other hand, it feels a little like betraying Robby's trust. What if he doesn't want her to tell him? She imagines that might be the case..
.. it feels a little like being stuck between a rock and a hard place.
On the other hand, reading what Robby's father is saying here, it sounds like he really does want to work things out. Like things are maybe better with him than they are with Chizuru's own dad.
So.. ]
he told me he wanted to see you
[ Sorry, Robby. ]
he wants you to be the one to reach out rather than him having to ask you to see him that is all i know sir i hope it helps i think he would be happier with you than without you
[There is a pause and he keeps that in mind for the future. He's not really sure how exactly to go about it. At least not with Robby. For some reason it was always more complicated when Robby was involved.]
I'll keep all that in mind, kid. I'll try not to let him down either. Can't promise that. But I'll try.
[ She feels like she can say that, because it's not like she's saying that for Robby, or in his place. She's saying it for herself, because it's nice to see that there at least fathers out there who want to try. ]
if there is ever anything i can do to help then let me know robby is very important to me i want him to be happy
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Date: 2022-12-04 06:14 pm (UTC)Thankfully Johnny's text didn't get accidentally misfired to someone out of said context. ]
my father stopped
[ .. why is she typing it? She isn't sure, especially since she hasn't even told many people in this place about this.
Maybe it's to give him a bit more of an idea? Who knows. ]
one day he just left
and he did not come back
i do not think he was ever planning on coming back
please do not let robby feel that way
it feels awful
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Date: 2022-12-06 03:06 am (UTC)But my dad did the same thing.
So I get it.
And... I don't want to do it to Robby.
I just. I already have done it to him before.
I don't want want to keep doing it to him.
But I'm having trouble finding a way to let him know I want to be there.
That I want in his life.
Even if I don't deserve it.
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Date: 2022-12-06 08:03 pm (UTC)..
She tries to push aside the thought for now, even though it's hard. ]
if it is alright for me to ask
what did you do so far to let him know you want to be there
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Date: 2022-12-07 02:50 am (UTC)The last day I remember from back home.
He came to my house.
He got into some trouble and I took him in and tried to help.
There were some problems- Yeah.
But we were going to figure it out.
I didn't really know what he needed but I was trying.
I hear things go to shit back home after that.
And I can't help that.
I know what I was trying to do.
When he got here-
I've offered to let him stay with me.
I've tried to reach out a couple times.
Just- Show him that I'm around and want to talk.
Or tell him he's doing good.
I never got that as a kid.
I've... Well I guess we're pretty different.
Each time I've got told to go away or that he needs space.
And I've tried to respect that.
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Date: 2022-12-09 06:43 pm (UTC)Mostly because Chizuru is so worried about what to do here. It feels right to communicate what Robby told her to Johnny here, because it might be the only way to give the man an idea of what Robby told her, of what he might want.
On the other hand, it feels a little like betraying Robby's trust. What if he doesn't want her to tell him? She imagines that might be the case..
.. it feels a little like being stuck between a rock and a hard place.
On the other hand, reading what Robby's father is saying here, it sounds like he really does want to work things out. Like things are maybe better with him than they are with Chizuru's own dad.
So.. ]
he told me he wanted to see you
[ Sorry, Robby. ]
he wants you to be the one to reach out rather than him having to ask you to see him
that is all i know sir
i hope it helps
i think he would be happier with you than without you
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Date: 2022-12-12 04:49 am (UTC)[There is a pause and he keeps that in mind for the future. He's not really sure how exactly to go about it. At least not with Robby. For some reason it was always more complicated when Robby was involved.]
I'll keep all that in mind, kid.
I'll try not to let him down either.
Can't promise that.
But I'll try.
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Date: 2022-12-13 09:02 pm (UTC)[ She feels like she can say that, because it's not like she's saying that for Robby, or in his place. She's saying it for herself, because it's nice to see that there at least fathers out there who want to try. ]
if there is ever anything i can do to help
then let me know
robby is very important to me
i want him to be happy
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Date: 2023-01-01 04:54 pm (UTC)I know it might not seem like it.
But he's important to me too.
And I want him to know that.
But I'll keep you posted there, kid.
Just keep an eye out on him.